would like very much to offer a system out of 'a nut shell' instead
of using so many words. That 'healingOneself' could be done more easily,
but in fact, it's pretty hard work. What I am sharing in my writings will
not suite every body. Evolution of a whole system starts with a few...
Who are ready.
Half a year
has passed since I started this Web site in which I tell bout all what
I have done and what I am doing to be healed.
I can say that I feel
much better: The strong pain all over my body in all muscles, joints and
organs is nearly gone. There are no cramps anymore in my feet and the best:
I have no headache anymore, what before I had for many days. My head sometimes
is still dizzy and it still happens that I can't read long articles or
I recovered part of
my energy but it is just enough to take care of myself and my horse and
even this sometimes is too much and I have to watch out very carefully
not to come too near to exhaustion. When I pass this limit then I need
a few days to recover. What makes that I have to be aware how I spend my
energy and make precise decisions even this seems sometimes insensible
and egoistically to people.
So what is it I'm doing now for my healing? I will list
it up, the most important first:
Twice a day 20 minutes
of 'Stress Release
Being aware of the healing
process and taking care of details.
Questioning myself and
being self critical to whatever shows up.
Being aware of my resistance
to recognize old patterns showing up.
Being aware of the tendency
of falling back into resignation.
Being aware of the density
of my mind and feelings.
Being aware of my identification
with thoughts and feelings.
Being aware of my need
to get confirmation for it.
Being aware of my clinging
on material stuff.
Being aware of my reactions
if there is not enough confirmation.
Being aware how I provoke
my surrounding to get confirmation.
Being aware of my established
measurements of habits and values.
Being aware of my clinging
to worn out habits and values.
Being aware of my eating
habits, realizing that often eating is a substitute.
Being aware of my pseudo
security and realizing how much resistance and disturbance it creates to
let go of it.
Being aware of my established
Being aware of my reactions
triggered during the day.
Being aware of my identifications
Being aware of my dependencies...
and the resistance and reactions it creates if one tries to let go of it.
Being aware of my fear
to allow silence and emptiness.
Being aware of my reactions
if coming near to what might be felt as 'void'.
Being aware of my fear
when being confronted with chaos around.
Being aware of my fear
when chaos shows up within oneself.
Being aware of my self
Being aware of my identification
with concepts about everything.
Being aware that I am
not open for something which doesn't fit in my established concepts.
Realizing that objectivity
is an illusion.
Realizing that I am trapped
in my 'personality', being governed by this, observing that most humans
are like zombies walking through life, being attracted by absurd goals
given by a corrupt society whose values are in the first place materialistic.
Being aware how much we
are manipulated in all fields of life through the established system.
Being aware how much this
has built up one's personality in a determinated and limited way.
Allowing to see how absurd
and chaotic humankind is dealing with life and problems showing up and
how absurd daily life goals mostly are.
Allowing thoughts about
death and the feelings this triggers.
Allowing all kind of strange
and unknown states of being within myself and being aware of my defense
Being cool enough to observe
myself and making decisions which feel right.
Not worrying about daily
needs. Having the trust that the right thing will show up in the right
Being critical and open
to what shows up, being able to improvise, making my decisions to choose
what feels right, even with the risk to make a mistake.
Being aware of feeling
often like a victim.
Changing my attitude of
being a victim of circumstances and people by understanding that we are
all in a process and there is no punishment for what one might have done
wrong. Our 'growing process' is also a 'learning process'. But not how
to learn to defend ourselves better or to survive more comfortable, but
to grow into unknown spaces...
Having the complete trust
that 'existence' and together with it also one's disease is not a negative
happening and knowing that we are NOT the helpless victims of it.
Understanding that 'disease'
is a process which is positive and helps us to grow, what means that we
overcome our limitations and stuck position, being trapped in a construction
of established images of this world and ourselves.
Seeing disease as a challenge
which moves towards transformation and evolution.
Accepting that I'm ready
for life's offered challenge, even I don't like it and have the tendency
to stay in the old form, behavior and attitude.
Being aware that I'm trapped
in a social concept of life in all aspects.
Being aware that I'm wasting
good part of my energy in following what is offered around. From common
goals in general to daily behavior, alimentation or entertainment. I'm
observing that we are so much used to it that it is very much like an addiction.
We need to realize that we are manipulated from people with materialistic
interests, who are not only brainwashing us all life long, but we also
need to realize that this comes out of a long tradition. First we need
to see this, then maybe fully understand it and then we might be able to
make decisions and so getting out of it.
the above I have created a positive attitude and I will not waste my energy
anymore in negative reactions when there are showing up circumstances which
are in contrary of what I want or of what the image is how I would like
it to be. With this I will stay more relaxed and will not build up and
accumulate tension. Then with whatever will show up I will more openly
examine and decide and also check out possible solutions. That would mean
in the view of disease, to find the adequate treatments.
After gathering a lot of information, I'm convinced that
the cause for Fibromyalgia and probably most of diseases, at least in a
big part comes from accumulated toxins, which are weakening the immune
system and so the body is invaded by fungus, viruses, candida, etc. So
the first goal might be to get rid of this accumulated waste and clean
up the system. The following serves in the first place for this purpose.
Update: My latest
discovery tells me that probably parallel with intoxication comes the accumulation
of stress, causing diseases. I'm convinced that the 'Stress
Release Exercise' takes care of this aspect in the most efficient way.
Recognizing this fact, I see clearly, what my future work will be...
I'm doing the following:
Always check if
it might serve yourself and consult first your medical doctor before you
do any treatment on yourself! You need to inform yourself about every aspects
before you start anything, although nothing of the following is dangerous
or has any side effects. But there is always the risk that you do something
wrong or something happens to you, as a healing reaction or apart of it.
And I can not be responsible for it. - This
sauna every second day. (25-30 minutes)
Within this sauna session
I use a funnel
to direct the ozone to specific places which might need it most. For this
I use a ozone generator which produces a flow rate of 1 liter/minute and
a concentration of 60 µg/ml. At the same time being in the sauna,
I am doing ear and then mouth insufflation with a second ozone generator
with a low flow rate of 1/16 liter/minute and a concentration of 20 µg/ml.
Rectal ozone insufflation
every second day. (250-500 ccm)
Before this an enema with
Using an Air Ozonisator
in the room I live.
Drinking daily about 2-3
liter of herb tea or ozonated
Drinking daily one glass
of water with a few drops of hydrogen
peroxide H2O2. (Horse 3 x 6 drops): (Horse: A second bucket of
water with 1 spoon of salt.)
Drinking one cup of Olive
leaf tea daily.
Drinking three times a
day a cup of herb tea with three teaspoons of apple
vinegar and one small teaspoon of honey. (Horse 3 x daily two spoons
mixed into his food)
Taking about 8 gram of
daily. (Horse 30 gr. daily)
Taking daily one table
spoon of fresh Aloe
Being strict in my selection
of alimentation. (About this later more...)
Doing a fasting of at
least two weeks, better three. This has an enormous healing effect and
is probably the most effective one can do and it costs nothing! (Except
you do a lemon juice and marble syrup fast, the syrup is pretty expensive.)
About fasting later more!
Doing daily some exercise
the whole body, the best in fresh air and if possible in nature surrounded
by plants and trees.
(Two years later!) With fibromyalgia it is extremely difficult to make
body exercises because every joint, muscle and nerve hurts. But it is very
important to do these exercises every day and enough. Now I see that I
haven't done it enough and also not when I was recovering and was without
pain. The several years of not using my muscles at all had caused a weakness
and also a accumulation of fat. With the result that when I was recovered
and was working like before, then it happened that lifting some heavy stuff,
I got an inguinal hernia. I have made a
page about it and suggest urgently that you read it carefully. It might
motivate you enough to do exercises having fibromyalgia even if it hurts,
because then you can avoid a hernia and so the need to go into another
long healing process...
Taking a rest after each
activity not to come too near to exhaustion.
Using a vibration massager
for hurting muscles or just for relaxation.
Using a foot vibration
Using a ultra sound massager
for my finger joints.
Switching off the electrical
current when I go to sleep during the night.
Allowing ventilation during
the night when I sleep, even when it's cold outside.
Somebody had asked me for an advice more descriptive and
systematically. OK, here it is: 7
Steps for Recovery
found an article from Guy-Claude
Burger. It is the best I have read for a long time and it confirms
all what I have felt about diseases and their cause.
For about two months I have done the Candida
diet. I was feeling then much better but I was not sure if this was due
to the diet. So I decided to be not that strict anymore and included again
fruits and some of the other forbidden food. After one week I felt bad
again and when my liver was hurting for several days, I decided to do a
one week fasting with a liver
cleansing. That's what I am doing now. Several months ago I had
done a fasting with a following liver cleansing with Epsom salt, apart
of that it didn't work for me, I felt it as pretty disgusting...
I thought that maybe I should try more supplements apart
of the MSM which I am taking since several months, so I ordered a selection
of them from the USA. But when the supplements arrived they got stuck in
the customs and they told me that they would not allow the importation
because they call supplements also medicine. So I can forget about it.
Anyway I think it is better to stick with the remedies I can pick around
my house like the olive
Yesterday I made the first batch of 'Collodial
Silver' and I took 1/8 liter right away, that was half of it. I
will make every day one batch. The generator I made myself with what I
found around here in the store room with old stuff to be recycled and I
to make one. It's really easy and it works without problems. I
will take the CS from now on for about three weeks and report about it...
There is a Web
site about CS Philosophies - Determining Dosage Levels for Colloidal
Silver Use, etc...
The last few weeks I felt so much better, mostly without
pain and with much more energy, that I had the feeling nearly to be healed.
I was wrong, because since a few days I feel bad and today I felt so miserable
like I haven't felt for several months: Again pain all over, extremely
tiredness, dizziness, diarrhea, vomiting, etc. My shoulders are hurting
so much that I couldn't brush my horse today. The reason for falling back
is probably that I wasn't that selective in my diet anymore and ate things,
somehow I had felt that I shouldn't eat it. Also I haven't taken my sauna
every second day, I skipped it several times, no massage anymore, no collodial
Silver, no Hydrogen Peroxide, no Aloe Vera, but what probably caused it
mostly was that I didn't drink enough and that I have eaten some junk food.
The consequence is:
good, stick with your diet, supplements and treatments you are taking and
you are convinced of. Don't fall into temptations, don't drop treatments,
don't eat what doesn't feel completely right! Also: Don't over estimate
your energy, don't work too hard, don't carry heavy things, don't get into
stress! Keep cool, meditate and observe!
So I will need to start
again with a more strict diet and I have decided to follow a Fibro-Diet
which is in parts described by 'Ed
the Netherlands' and with supplements from 'Captain David Williams'.
Today I received an email in which was mentioned that
the cause for Fibromyalgia might be a chronic nasal/sinus infection and
so with my horse. "Bacterial
infections of the nose and sinus are difficult to get rid of because inflammation
in the protective membrane in the nose and its poor circulation. These
bacterial infections, usually staph, produce powerful toxins which damage
muscle tissue and cause fibromyalgia. I don't know why this seems to be
a secret. 34 million Americans suffer from this, so its very common
and very poorly treated by doctors."
I remember now that
two or three years ago I had some problems with my nose/throught and also
my horse had these. I will look into this and maybe do some nasal cleansing
with 'Neti' what my first yoga teacher Swami
Dev Murti forty years ago had shown me...
I did the nose cleansing
for a few days now with salt water and this feels good. I will continue
I just read a page about making sprouts, but it is much
more: it is the best about nutrition I read since a long time and feels
totally right to me. You will see, read it yourself: http://www.geocities.com/~newliberty/earthstar/primaldiet.htm
Tomorrow I will get
the necessary seeds and things together and start to grow my own sprouts!
I will report about it later on...
What I just found about Apple Vinegar
seems to be important and reminds me that my mother was very found of it
and used it at all kind of occasions. I didn't take her very serious about
it, probably because in those days I had no health problems, - this was
twenty years ago... When I read now about all the good effects the Apple
vinegar has then I ask myself if I could have avoided my disease by taking
my mother more serious. So at least I will start now to take Apple
Vinegar and I suggest that you read the information about it.
For many years I have taken Kefir and Kombucha
every day. I was in a good health in those days... Looking back I see that
some time after I had dropped taking Kefir and Kombucha my disease started.
I had totally forgotten about it, but now I will start again. First I will
look for a source of fresh milk for a Kefir
culture and try to get the Kombucha
culture, with this I could start then immediately.
By the way: I believe strongly that writing or
reading poetry has a very efficient healing effect. I suggest that you
try to write poetry or at least read some. There are a lot on my poetry
Web site, best you read one poem before you go to sleep... Enjoy!
The influence of what one takes
in is much more important than we are aware of. That our alimentation is
building up the physical body, nourishing it and also is poisoning it with
all consequences, this is pretty clear, but we are often not aware that
what we allow to enter through our eyes and ears is of strong influence
to our mental and emotional body. Also here we should select carefully.
Just one example: How often we are watching in TV movies in which people
are killed and tortured! Often more than a dozen people are killed every
day and this in all television stations all over the world, watched by
many millions of people, children included! And this every day! No wonder
that then more and more crimes happen in real life. Humans are used to
copy what is seen outside and the step from being violent in one's fantasy
and then to a realization is not that big. Enough aggression accumulated
by frustration is present in nearly every body and is waiting for a occasion
to come out and this will be much easier if it has happened in one's fantasy
many times nourished over a long time and so is established in one's own
system. A few days ago I read a little story about native americans: A
father said to his son: Inside we have two wolfs. One is aggressive
and bad and the other is friendly and good. 'Which one wins?' Asked the
son. 'The one which is fed', answered the father.
is that one should select carefully what one takes in and if it is not
possible to avoid something then one should be aware of the influence so
that there is no imprint left which can influence unconsciously.
In the same way we
should be aware of the influences we cause on our surrounding and other
people, because the surrounding will react and so it will be reflected
to us and so produce a chain reaction... As a first step to be able to
select influences, we should be aware of our tendency to reject anything
what is unknown to us. I wrote an article about it: "Immune
System and Personality". This article was rejected by the list owner
of the mailing list I was subscribed to, because of exactly the same reason
I am describing in my article.
last three weeks I was subscribed to various Message Boards, so called
for Fibromyalgia, chronic pain, etc. I spent more than 80 hours working
on these groups, every day about four hours. Reading and writing with a
good part of the time waiting in front of the empty screen when the pages
were loading boringly slow... The result of this experience would be shattering
if I had taken it personally: Within two weeks I was kicked out of four
of these lists, and another one I left just before they would have banned
me. During two weeks I had posted about ten articles and ten poems and
a few comments within other threads to each of these lists. In two of the
lists the owners had given me special spaces "Healing Lodge" and "Healing
Corner" where I posted my articles and where I was expecting to have an
exchange with people. Then I was observing the lists and just waiting:
Nothing. Not one response at all! When I posted a comment after two weeks
about this phenomenon, then finally there came reactions: all defending
their beliefs, mostly religious and then the next day I found myself in
front of the closed door of the group. After this happened four times then
I had learned from it to see it coming ahead of time and left the remaining
lists before I was kicked out.
Were the three weeks
I spent with these message boards wasted time? I don't think so. I got
another important insight about reality which for sure is of great value
for future activities - or non activities.
I tried to offer a
key to these people for their individual healing process. Expressing my
insights coming out of my life's experience, forty years of meditation
and my personal testimonial going through the healing process from Fibromyalgia
myself. This was totally ignored and when I asked about it then they felt
offended and attacked me, finding a reason to impress the list owner to
kick me out. Then they explained it by telling on the board that they didn't
understand anything what I posted - not one of them - and that they felt
invaded by me because I was imposing my opinion on them, but that they
wanted to keep their place safe which they had created with a lot of hard
(Who wants to know
more details about this phenomenon, which indeed can give a strong insight
about human nature, can go to the 'documentation' I will select for this...)
haven't done this because I thought this is wasting energy as there is
About the insight
as a result of these three weeks I will write more, here only this much:
The attitude, the behavior and the ignorance showing up in these groups
is exactly the same as in each individual, the same as in all established
systems, these might be families, companies, parties, or countries - or
humanity as a whole. Exactly in this attitude, which is mainly based on
survival and defense, we can find the reason for all the problems we are
encountering on this planet - war and diseases included. And if somebody
openly comes and offers information to get out of all these disasters,
then this person will be ignored, attacked and finally eliminated. see
The experience with the message boards also makes
me understand why there is hardly any feedback for this healing Web site,
although there are now about 3.000 visitors daily. People come to my Web
site with the hope that they will find an easy way to get rid instantly
of their disease and then they are disappointed when they read that one
needs self responsibility and that it is necessary to get out of dependencies!
It is hard work and needs an engagement which includes all levels and even
more than a person has at hand... Many people might not understand what
I am talking about and they are not interested to go deeper into it or
ask about it. That makes me think... It is very much possible that my intention
with this 'Healing Web site' is a failure. My intention to make the inside
available that disease can be used in one's growing process in a positive
and creative way, hasn't yet a place in this society. So then the suffering
continues and the dependency from authorities and a system which is based
on a total materialistic world view...
I read in an article at the news group >misc.health.alternative<
from Jan Drew (Subject: One More Reason To Turn To Alternative/Complementary
Fatigue Syndrome, and Multiple Chemical Sensitivity syndromes are beyond
the medical education and intellect of the present generation. The medical
textbooks which properly deal with these diseases medically and scientifically
will be written by the next generation. The present generation
of sci/med professionals generally will protect its intellectual turf until
it retires, and these patients will be scoffed at, ridiculed, marginalized
etc. until fresh young minds, which will not find these diseases to be
strange, will give these diseases the study and respect they deserve."
But I can't wait and
so the only way is - having suffered enough, - to find out myself and of
course I would like that the platform Internet could be used to come together
with other who are motivated to search and seek, not being impressed by
authorities and established viewpoints!
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