Experiences of being misunderstood
being ignored or attacked out of defense
the urge to express myself has vanishedEmptiness is left with a trace of sadness
reaching out to connect with the One within others
wide space between my words can't be receivedPushed again to see what's really there around
recognizing the need within to show oneself
manifesting the invisible part of all there isWords seem to be an inadequate material
too much depending on one's limited reception
individual structure striving for satisfactionWords are used to reflect one's narrow existence
through fight or confirmation one feels identified
not used as tools to find the space beyond oneselfThis might be the lesson for me to learn
outgoing expression will provoke reactions
as a substitute for one's suppressed creativityCreative initiative blocked by personal structure
finds its way through thoughts and feelings
an outlet of life's force to make itself visibleThis might go on and on - not being recognized
producing satisfaction and suffering at the same time
keeping oneself closed into the cage of separationThis for sure is not my situation. So what can I do?
Shall I go on just being in my silent - vivid space
enjoying being alive - reflecting existence?Silence which is filled with all those expressions
from all beings around - striving and growing
towards the conscious presence of light withinBeiYin
12. 8. 1999
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